“Come to the water
stand by my side
I know you are thirsty
you wont be denied”
Words that we sang
we could drink deep
take refreshing sips
the well is always full
There are days I doubt
distracted by drought
when I have been starving
you have always provided
what I needed
even in my disbelief
you shared your pool of mercy
where I could bathe in hope
Do you ever face days where you can’t see past the trial or the trouble? Do the words “He will provide” seem trite? I cannot count for you how many times He has provided food for my family when the cupboards (and bank account) were bare. I am reminded of the prayer of my child for shoes and the next day I was given money that bought four pairs of shoes for my little ones. And the prayers of a preteen whose best friend has just lost her mom when we find out I also have cancer.
Sometimes life seems like Russian Roulette and The doctor says “you might live and you might die.”
In a van going to another country to get alternate treatment the woman next to me tells me her bleak story. “There are very few healthy cells left in my body. Maybe a month left now and so I made this trip as a last hope even if it can buy more time with my kids. They have no one except me. No one…” Her 18 year old son sits next to her. He is her designated caregiver because there is no one else.
Cancer takes on a new meaning for me as God pulls me out of my own dark reverie to pray without ceasing for this young mom.
I am assured not beaten down
I am certain that God has a plan not destruction
I am lifted up on eagles wings not on a paper airplane…
Weeks of treatment go by. The woman has had many up and downs. I sit with her one day during treatment and she starts going downhill. She hands me her PET scan. “The cancer is diminished. I may have more than a year now.” As she leaves the hospital she hands me her PET scan done that day. There are little bitty pieces of cancer. I am going home with more than a figthing chance and I know many prayers…”
If this God cares about shoes and a woman’s cells then does He also not care for your circumstances? What about the World’s?”
CoVid-19 is indeed scary so is having no money.
He knows your every need He hears your every prayer!!!
“You keep track of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each one in your book.”